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It’s Time

There has been a stack of boxes in my basement that I’ve been avoiding for the last 20 or so months.  My initial excuse was, “I’m going to take 6 months off work so there is no need to unpack my office just yet” and then … well … the idea of jumping back on the portrait biz bandwagon just wasn’t something I could wrap my brain around anymore.  But that took awhile to admit to myself, and then there was some grieving to do, and then I just needed to let it all sit and be and see how it felt.  And then, suddenly, I was ready.  So I’ve been tackling all those boxes: shredding, donating or tossing nearly everything.  Through the process I’ve felt so much pride in what I built, gratitude to the clients who helped me build it, and a little bit bummed that I’m letting it go for the time being – even though I know it’s exactly the right thing for myself and my family.  For the most part the process has been cathartic, but when I’ve gotten overwhelmed Dr. Dan – being the amazing man that he is – has whisked me away to “eat my feelings”.  We talk about my work and what’s next over gourmet grass-fed burgers, sweet potato fries, and the most amazing milk shakes imaginable.  Not cheap in terms of calories, but for a therapy session it’s a pretty good bargain!

So, what is next?  I’m not exactly sure yet, but I have lots of interests and ideas and a pretty good sense of what makes me tick.  I have a gorgeous medium format camera sitting in a closet just begging to be used … so I also hope to mess around the explore more with both digital and film.  And I anticipate always being available to shoot just a little – here and there – for long time clients, family and dear friends.  Cause sometimes I’m just going to need to get my fix, you know?

So, that’s where I’m at.  Just thought I’d throw it out there.  You know, in case anyone was wondering.

With much love to all,

Reb

p.s. posting this was a lot harder then I thought it would be.  That picture of my website pretty much did me in … it’s kind of like saying goodbye to my fifth child.  Thankfully, it doesn’t have to be goodbye forever … not if I don’t want it to be.

Metta - No, it doesn’t have to be forever. But it can be, if you find a sixth child you love more dearly. xxxxoooo Thanks for sharing a bit of your heart.March 21, 2013 – 10:05 PM

Chelsey - I wondered what you’d been up to since the move. I think life has seasons. And it’s imperative to regroup when the time is needed … and focus on what needs focusing on. You always do that so well. Thank you for being you. xoxoMarch 22, 2013 – 2:44 PM

dena robles - I hear you. And I agree with Metta, and Chelsey too. But seeing your website up there nearly did *me* in. Good thing I know a few other medium format cameras that want to play with your medium format camera when you are ready.March 22, 2013 – 7:07 PM

me again - Oh, and please count me in for those sweet potato fries and the most amazing milk shakes imaginable.March 22, 2013 – 7:08 PM

Rebecca - Definitely! Along with a delicious veggie burger???March 23, 2013 – 11:09 AM

Rebecca - Yes, yes … I need to schedule a trip up north to play. I think shooting is going to be the best therapy for me right now and especially shooting my lovely Bronwyn. I’ll text you this week with potential dates … :)March 23, 2013 – 11:10 AM

Rebecca - I was thinking about that too … how life has seasons. Thank you for always being so kind Chelsey, so kind and so supportive!March 23, 2013 – 11:11 AM

Rebecca - Love this thought Metta, about possibly finding a sixth child. Who knows what the future has in store … a blank slate is overwhelming but it’s also pretty darn exciting too! xoxoMarch 23, 2013 – 11:12 AM

annie - It made me sad to read this post because I know what a huge part of your life it has been, but that being said you are so crazy talented you could go back if it ever felt right or you will discover a new outlet. You are so gifted that whatever you decide to do next will be just as amazing! love you sis!March 27, 2013 – 4:24 PM

Shannon Ashton - Whatever you do, you do it so well. I know whatever comes next will not be an exception.April 9, 2013 – 11:02 AM

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