There has been a stack of boxes in my basement that I’ve been avoiding for the last 20 or so months. My initial excuse was, “I’m going to take 6 months off work so there is no need to unpack my office just yet” and then … well … the idea of jumping back on the portrait biz bandwagon just wasn’t something I could wrap my brain around anymore. But that took awhile to admit to myself, and then there was some grieving to do, and then I just needed to let it all sit and be and see how it felt. And then, suddenly, I was ready. So I’ve been tackling all those boxes: shredding, donating or tossing nearly everything. Through the process I’ve felt so much pride in what I built, gratitude to the clients who helped me build it, and a little bit bummed that I’m letting it go for the time being – even though I know it’s exactly the right thing for myself and my family. For the most part the process has been cathartic, but when I’ve gotten overwhelmed Dr. Dan – being the amazing man that he is – has whisked me away to “eat my feelings”. We talk about my work and what’s next over gourmet grass-fed burgers, sweet potato fries, and the most amazing milk shakes imaginable. Not cheap in terms of calories, but for a therapy session it’s a pretty good bargain!
So, what is next? I’m not exactly sure yet, but I have lots of interests and ideas and a pretty good sense of what makes me tick. I have a gorgeous medium format camera sitting in a closet just begging to be used … so I also hope to mess around the explore more with both digital and film. And I anticipate always being available to shoot just a little – here and there – for long time clients, family and dear friends. Cause sometimes I’m just going to need to get my fix, you know?
So, that’s where I’m at. Just thought I’d throw it out there. You know, in case anyone was wondering.
With much love to all,
p.s. posting this was a lot harder then I thought it would be. That picture of my website pretty much did me in … it’s kind of like saying goodbye to my fifth child. Thankfully, it doesn’t have to be goodbye forever … not if I don’t want it to be.